Holding Hands

 Fleeting, yet seething. Safe, yet smothering. A constant wrongness. A daily need to vomit up your own reality.

  Living with suicidal needs makes sense when nothing else does. Moment to moment, sometimes second to second. It’s like being pregnant with a feral animal in the form of an omnipresent emotion. But I could put it down. I could let it out and set it free. Watch it grow, then sleep for the first time ever.